ADJUSTING WATCH BAND

I know its been FOREVER since Iv done a 365 but I have things in mind for my last few shots and my tiny turtle was one of them.
Well anyway. I dont think youve missed anything too terrible exciting. Ryan and I went and saw 50/50, I really liked it. Iv been at Ryans for a couple days now, just hanging out while I dont have to work too much. Iv pretty much just been working. I need to work more on my costume but I was sick for like a week and a half and I sort of just got out of it. I wish I had more to talk about but I really dont think Iv done anything worth talking about lately. Today we went and bought Monster (my tiny turtle) a 10 gal tank and a basking lamp, I hope its what he needs. Hes a cool little guy, Im quite fond of him. Apparently hes illegal lol but that just makes him cooler.
Iv had a lot on my mind. Im stressed about money mainly. I work and I make a fair amount of money but its like I cant get my hands on enough for a car all at once, I need a loan lol. Its frusterating because I really need this car... I need a second job but I cant get anywhere, I need to move out but I cant get anywhere. It just makes me tired thinking about it. Iv been thinking about other things too but Im trying not to, I cant make it a big deal. But Im scared about it.
For now its all fine, things are good despite a few finacial stresses and annoyances but thats just part of what Im going to have to go through in order to get to where I want to be. Im low on options. Everyone always says that I can just go back home, that its ok to try and fail and need some help from family but honestly Iowa is not an option for me.. because I know what will happen if I go back, and I refuse to let that be my life. So Ill struggle for awhile. Im pretty happy really, I like my job and the people I work with and when Im not working I get to hang out with my best friend. OH! I almost forgot! Ryan and I got Dead Island!!! Its sooo much fun!
Well Im out of things to say. Im off today, just watching Sons of Anarchy and waiting for Ryan to get off of work so we can eat, Im starved. I work fairly early tomorrow, I hate working mornings. Blah.

Sticky note. I love victorian houses, I think they are so beautiful. The big windows, the huge porches, the stair cases. I love it. I remember going to a victorian house in school for something or another and I thought it was so neat. I loved how the stair case was the center of the house and all the rooms had doors and circled the stair case. But my favorite thing is the porch, the wrap around porch :)

Why is it that I can never verbalize what I want to say. I want to talk about things, I want to be able to explain emotions. But I can't. I freeze up. Every thought that I have about what I wanted to say immediately disappears. I can't do it.
And i hate it

No I’ve never seen you like this,
And I don't like it
I don't like it
I don't like it at all